One of the strange things about the academic life is that everything can get impossibly busy during the semester, and then, suddenly, one day, it is all over.
I feel hurled over a cliff. Free fall.
It's not that I no longer have anything to do (my "to do" list remains embarrassingly long). It's that suddenly there is no longer a schedule running my life for me. Now I have to make decisions about which of the many items on my list I should attend to next!
There still are some things on my schedule, but they are now spaced far enough apart that I have time to look around and take stock and, well, get anxious about certain things, actually.
Still, I am very very happy to have reached this moment. Because the final grading is so stressful to me, I follow it up by sending notes to some of my students (those I think will be disappointed with their grades -- to help explain and put it into perspective for them). It's when I finish this most stressful task that I finally regard the hard work to be done. And I reached that moment today. So, I am at that wonderful moment when I have the whole of the summer break ahead of me! I like to savor this beginning, because I know that before I know it, the summer will have fled!
But not now. Now it just begins!
This is a creative moment, full of possibility!
5 years ago